BY: SANDRA LEE
Or, perhaps it would be more appropriate to say “Dear God.”
I’m sitting here trying to think in the Christian perspective of the ways I should proceed to write an article regarding War and Pain. It has become, while it shouldn’t be, a pain to write this topic at hand. While flipping through the Holy Bible, a text that has not been part of my twenty-two years of life, I have come to an agreement with my inner self that it would be hypocritical of me to express my ideas and beliefs as a Christian when I am not one. Therefore, I shall write by what I believe is Pain and its relation to War and shall also use this opportunity to reconcile my beliefs and faith to You, An Unknown God.
To An Unknown God,
You are one and many; form and formless. Your presence is boundless, unrestrained by the limited capacity of my knowing. Thus, You are Unknown to my knowing. If You do have a consciousness and are aware of my minute presence, I believe You are the most compassionate and understanding being. Unlike some say otherwise, You are never selfish for such a character is nonexistent in Your dictionary. Thus, whenever someone prays to You and seeks to be reunited with You through his or her various, imaginative forms of You, You understand that those forms are all You.
Due to our own limited capacity in knowing as human beings, we can get anxious. That anxiety can then induce fear. Fear leads us to seek for You to help us conquer anxiety, as we seem to believe readily that You have the power to pull us out from or give us courage during anxiety-inducing situations. Yet, how do we know You have such power? While some may start citing references or expressing their opinions on what You can and cannot do, the question is not meant to initiate an argument in establishing which is correct and which is wrong. If You do have the power, You are powerful in that sense. If You don’t, I understand this as well. This is also acceptable because You may already know that You don’t need such power.
I have come to an understanding that we do have the ability to help ourselves. We already have the innate power to conquer anxiety, for our anxiety does not come from the unknown but stems from the known sources. These sources or characters are pride, selfishness, and obstinacy. I don’t believe, however, that these sources connote only negativity; there are positive aspects to these characteristics. Unfortunately, to break away from anxiety, we should limit them.
When we become too prideful, selfish or obstinate, we can make rash statements and actions that can collide with others’ viewpoints. This self-induced collision will frustrate us and make us worry, for we generally wish to be well-liked by others. Thus, these feelings of worry and frustration are unpleasant for they induce fear.
Fear is a symptom of anxiety, which is a form of pain in disguise. We generally don’t like pain. Thus, to get rid of this pain, we tend to argue and fight back by silencing or even getting rid of that person or collision. Consequentially, a war is created or can be formed either metaphorically or literally. Yet, even when the war is over, why do we often have post-war anxieties? Why don’t we usually feel satisfied after an argument? Did we not fight to get rid of these anxieties in the first place?
We are fighting the wrong enemies. What we should be fighting against are pride, selfishness, and obstinacy. Fight against those characteristics within us. Fight so we can say goodbye to anxiety, pain, and war. Fight by honing our humble nature, for having humility will open the door to compassion, which will then lead to acceptance and embracement of all existence. Unknown God, is not that essentially You? Would You agree? Will You, then, wait for me?
A Novice of Humility