Carry My Soul



I jerk my head awake just in time to hear the professor’s closing remark, “Don’t forget, homework due next lecture.” I glance over at my classmate, who looks at me knowingly.  Here we go again.

Drudgery. It doesn’t come on you all at once. Everything is exciting when you first start out: a new job, new class, or a new and improved future. But now it’s the middle of the semester and maybe you find yourself in a slump. What are you doing with your life?  How can the things of today ever seem to move towards the goals of tomorrow?

Work.  Play.  Study.  Eat.  Sleep.

You wake up; dragging yourself out of bed, looking forward to the same daily agenda you fell asleep to yesterday.  Once you get over the initial grogginess, worries start plaguing your mind.  Will I be able to get everything done today?

Time. You can’t get away from it. When you’re walking to class, the Campanile looms over you, always reminding you of the time and the next thing you have to get done. Time is limited, just like everything else in this world

Anxiety. It’s the time of year once again when everyone has that mid-semester crisis. Everything seems too monotonous, too hurried, too rushed. There’s always too much to do, not enough time, and not enough energy or resources to get it all done.

But it’s not about how we can live each day for tomorrow; it’s about how we can live each moment fully aware of our surroundings and fully aware of God’s presence with us. Paradoxically, to live each moment fully aware of the present, we have to remind ourselves of the future. But not the worries and anxieties of the future. Jesus himself said, “Do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.” We may not know exactly what each day will hold, but we do know that at the end of this race of life on Earth, a timeless eternity with our Father in heaven is waiting for us.

1 Corinthians 9:24-27 says, “Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one receives the prize? So run that you may obtain it. Every athlete exercises self-control in all things. They do it to receive a perishable wreath, but we an imperishable. So I do not run aimlessly; I do not box as one beating the air.”

Life is not meaningless when we have hope in Jesus. Sometimes in the drudgery of life, we have to remind ourselves of God’s future promise of eternity and the life that we look forward to. But to do this we must take a break. Read God’s Word. Spend time in prayer and worship God.   Spending personal time with God should be priority.  The gospel is the foundation of energy and joy that carries us throughout each day.  Take the opportunity to make the most of every situation. When we feel like giving up, God is always present, and God is carrying us. If all else seems to fail, and there will be times when it does, there’s always JESUS.

As I walk through campus to my next class, I notice how beautiful the buildings are under the light of the noonday sun.  I say a silent prayer of thanks to God for the blessings He has placed in my life.  And with that, the world doesn’t seem so hard, so dull, or so impossible anymore because I know that no matter where I am or what I have to do, God is with me, pointing me towards a future lived with Him.

And so, in the words of Phil Wickham,

“I will run

Oh and I won’t quit

Chasing Your heart

Just like David did

I’ll come running

Through the gates

Looking to Your face

Oh I can hardly wait

Until You carry my soul

Carry my soul away”



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